wahhh wahhh wahhhhh

ughhhhhh ughhhhhhhh waahhhh wahhhhh wahhhhh. I cannot stand being the mediator ever. I find myself in the middle of a bunch of things. Things that I wish that I have no part of. but here I am hearing both sides, trying to help neither side, and slowly being dragged into it. I am hoping that people will live and let live and not be so caught up in certain things. We are all young. It is time to say fuck it, have a good time, and leave all the melodramatic bullshit at the door. Also, I find myself in love with another idea of a human being. I cannot handle this happening again. So I am going to attempt to close myself up and not let it happen, but this is proving to be much more difficult than I thought. so. much. more. difficult. fuck.

I really like your eyes, can I have them?

Just spent 40 minutes looking up the name to a the most horrific film ever created. after searching "girl kills people to make real life doll", "girl who uses body parts to make doll movie" and varied version on that. anyway. found it. MAY. watch it and be
disturbed.

yes.

boo

There is a ghost in my house.

LLandlust

Intertwined into oblivion

the cycle cycles once again.

It's starting to get sickening

starting to sink into nothingness

holding onto nothingness.

grasping, choking onto nothingness.

always nothingness.

that's how I keep myself sane.

keep myself slipping away from sanity.

Questioning it simply

but it not meaning anything.

The cycle proves itself correct

once again.

But I am okay.

too tired to try.

always just too tired

to lazy, to unaware.

lost, crazy, bored.

okay with it all,

so goodbye again

and again and

again.

can we already? jeez.

you really ARE crazy.

By far one of my favorite cities.

Twin Peaks

Mission

Noc Nocs (the dirtiest rowdiest bar I've ever chugged

sake bombs and saw bums foaming at the mouth at.)

The Mission

and chug pub with towers of beer.

all lovely places.

My two favorite ugly pieces of shit.

Knockout.

Everything is good. Really really good.

Decided to start blogging again but everyone has been lost.

It's fine I'll write to the nothingness that is the internet.

these are some lovely people.